Category: Fierce Creature
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Nine Weeks, One Nervous Parent, and a Very Opinionated Cat
Okay, so it’s happening. It’s happening. Nine weeks.Three kids.Three weeks each. One apartment in California that has never, not once, had to hold my parental brain, my work brain, and my nervous system all in the same space like this. I’m excited. I’m terrified. I’m spiraling a little, but in a cute, high-functioning kind of…
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Caffeine and Consent
Fast food is a treat! Sugar is a treat! Caffeine is a goddamn blessing sometimes. And I mean that in the most reverent, fully-caffeinated way possible. The thing is, when I was a kid, none of these things were “allowed.” Not really. Not with joy. Not with balance. Not with that soft internal yes that…
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Radiant Emotional Chaos
Somewhere along the line, we were told — taught, shown, reinforced — that it’s not okay to be proud of ourselves. Not really. Not in a bold, radiant, or unapologetic way. It’s “confidence” if it’s humble and palatable. But anything more than that, and suddenly, it’s vanity, ego, and arrogance. Especially if you’re not a…
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Takin’ Care of Business
Two projects have been haunting me for what feels like an eternity. I’m not exaggerating — one’s been sitting there for over three years (dutch companies, you monster), and the other one, california love, has been quietly judging me from the corner of my to-do list for more than a year. They’re the kind of…
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Dancing for Myself And
There will be a point where I want to perform again. I know this. It’s not today. It’s probably not tomorrow. But it’ll show up like a cat on the windowsill — soft, insistent, familiar. Performance will tug at me again, but this time, I want to answer it without the self-destruction. Without the body…
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Does That Make Me Crazy?
The official 4K video for “Crazy” by Gnarls Barkley from the album ‘St. Elsewhere’ – available now! Lyrics I remember when I remember, I remember when I lost my mind There was something so pleasant about that place Even your emotions have an echo in so much space And when you’re out there without care…
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Taking Care Of Rain
Saying no is so much harder than it should be. Like, ridiculously hard. Not because I don’t want to say no, but because somewhere along the way, I got trained to prioritize everyone else’s comfort over my own peace. My own safety. My own gut feeling that something’s not okay here. That I don’t like…
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Five OH
What If the Second Half Is the Best Half? Life right now is both deeply beautiful and absolutely bonkers. Like, objectively good and subjectively gutting. And I’m not talking about most of it publicly because, well, some of it isn’t mine to share. Other people’s stories, other people’s pain, other people’s triumphs. But let’s just…
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Let Us Pray
Let me tell you about my church. It doesn’t have pews.There’s no pulpit.No sermon. No congregation. No doctrine. Just breath.A candle.A floor.And a body that has carried nearly five decades of living. And at 4am—yes, 4am—I show up to worship. I used to think movement had to be useful. Had to produce something. Speed, shape,…
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Well, Actually…
Can trust be regained? My knee-jerk answer is no. Just—no. Like a slammed door or a dropped vase or a delete key hit too hard. Something cracked, shattered, glitched, deleted. You don’t unshatter. You don’t uncrack. You just are now. With a line through the middle of you. Except then my brain, that sneaky bastard,…
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Movement Pending
Time to Dance (Eventually) I want to be that old person in the corner with stories. Not the cranky “back in my day” kind—more like the cool one, with glitter in their laugh lines and a twinkle that makes the kids inch closer like they’re about to hear something forbidden or fantastic. I want to…
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Chaos, Creativity, and the Lofi Loop
Can creativity be taught? Absolutely. It can be fostered and developed just like any other skill. But that doesn’t mean it always feels easy. But today? I don’t wanna do the work. Bleh. But honestly, I never want to go into work, so that tracks. My brain is bouncing between so many thoughts – U,…