Chaos, Creativity, and the Lofi Loop

Can creativity be taught? Absolutely.

It can be fostered and developed just like any other skill. But that doesn’t mean it always feels easy.

But today?

I don’t wanna do the work. Bleh. But honestly, I never want to go into work, so that tracks. My brain is bouncing between so many thoughts – U, my skin acting up, the desire to fly out and take care of K.

But I know I’d be exhausted if I did.

Sometimes I sit down to write and all the ideas I had just vanish. Poof. Gone. And all I type is “I don’t know I don’t know I don’t know.” Which, ironically, is part of the process too. This is content creation: the messy, unfiltered, slightly chaotic part. Wouldn’t it be amazing if there were a neural port that could just pluck ideas from your brain and turn them into polished posts? But this – this rambling – is the work.

This is the writing.

But we’re better now. Lofi helps. It’s like a soft-focus lens for the brain. What do you want to talk about, Leander? I want to be at work weekend. I want K to be okay. I’m sad. And a little mad. The universe is weird like that. Sometimes it feels like there’s a lesson in the chaos. Other times, it’s just chaos.

Maybe chaos is the reason.

Lofi still playing. Still helping. Thanks, universe. Sometimes we get along.

Being here is a lot. But I’ve got time off starting Thursday. That’s something. And yeah, I could copy/paste to fill in the rest of the words for today. But maybe I’ll just write them out.

Because bleh.

Because why not.

Because sometimes the rebel in me says:

just do it your way.