Category: Fierce Creature
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Ran. The. Whole. Way.
I do not consider myself a runner. That is not one of my labels. But. Sometimes I run. First, let’s clearly define ‘run’. “move at a speed faster than a walk, never having both or all the feet on the ground at the same time” Now, there are tons of people who WALK faster than…
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Oh, And I’m A Mentor, Too
In rebranding the site, and especially over the last few days, I’ve been looking for the word for one who has PTSD. And depression. And occasional suicidal ideation. If you search for ‘patient’ on thesaurus.com and click on ‘person being treated for a medical problem, you get all kinds of helpful suggestions that DO NOT…
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Maybe I’m Not Listening To My Introvert Self Enough
I’m tired. Well and truly exhausted, actually. I got enough sleep last night. And managed to work a bit this morning, although nothing to brag about. And then I gave an Elevator Pitch workshop via Toastmasters Groningen and Connect International. That sounds WAY more impressive than it feels upon reflection. Have I mentioned how tired…
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This Space Intentionally Left Blank
TRIGGER WARNING This article or section, or pages it links to, contains information about sexual assault and/or violence which may be triggering to survivors. I’m staring at a blank page. With a blank mind. Knowing that it’s time to write. Time to express. Time to vent. And nothing’s coming. Just write. SOMETHING. The part that…
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How Was The Appointment?
TRIGGER WARNING This article or section, or pages it links to, contains information about sexual assault and/or violence which may be triggering to survivors. Doctor visit went fine. I was trying to speak in Dutch cause I didn’t want to have the English / Dutch talk again. The talk where I explain in Dutch that…
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Yes, I Finally Called The Doctor
TRIGGER WARNING This article or section, or pages it links to, contains information about sexual assault and/or violence which may be triggering to survivors. I have an appointment for tomorrow morning at 0830. But, also, I need to go pick up the prescription refill. One of the things, one of the PROBLEMS, with moving and…
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Yes, I Totally Forgot To Call The Doctor Today
You can only call to make appointments between eight and noon. And I missed. So I’ll call tomorrow. With C’s help. I hope. UGH.
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Yes, I’ll Call The Doctor Tomorrow
TRIGGER WARNING This article or section, or pages it links to, contains information about sexual assault and/or violence which may be triggering to survivors. The doorbell rang. It was a solicitor. Asking for funds for albino children in Zimbabwe. And when I pointed out how we didn’t have extra funds until the fall when our…
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What We’ve Learned So Far
As I’ve been rebuilding this site. In case you hadn’t noticed. I have. Cause of the hack. And this is what I’ve learned so far… Backups Aren’t Necessary UNTIL THEY ARE If I had been maintaining regular backups (which the hosting company is totally happy to do for just a few euros more per month),…
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I’m Obviously Stressed About Something
But I don’t know what it is. Helpful, aren’t I? Whenever I’m feeling stressed or anxious or depressed, there are signs. Lately I’ve been sitting on my ass doing NOTHING except watching television and / or eating. At night I chew my tongue so hard that the pain wakes me up. I also have nightmares.…
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Finally Some Good News
Something’s whack with the last version of the database on godaddy. All the site is wiped. I haven’t managed a shower yet. My teeth are wearing a sweater. And I might feel some regret over posting that picture of me with hairy armpits online. Everything is better with a catling on your lap. Also music…
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I Can Do This
Today I’m rebuilding groningenrain.nl for the second time. It was hacked. There were pharmaceutical ads all over the site. Sometimes replacing the entire site from the index out; sometimes only specific posts. Sometimes entire tags were replaced. It was ugly. I called godaddy, my hosting provider, and they said the damage was extensive and to…