Tag: health
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Consider This Your Gentle Reminder
Am I Scared or Just Forgetting to Play? One of the peculiar little puzzles I’m working on these days — and yes, that phrasing is intentional; it is a puzzle — is trying to approach things with curiosity instead of fear. Sounds easy, right? Like just a flick of a switch: boop, now I’m curious!…
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Bare Minimum Day
Some days, I wake up, and I know — deep in my bones, behind my eyeballs, under the to-do list tattoos etched on my soul — that I cannot. I just cannot. Not today. And still, my brain starts: “We should get things done.” Should clean. Should work out. Should make progress on healing. (Yes,…
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Nine Weeks, One Nervous Parent, and a Very Opinionated Cat
Okay, so it’s happening. It’s happening. Nine weeks.Three kids.Three weeks each. One apartment in California that has never, not once, had to hold my parental brain, my work brain, and my nervous system all in the same space like this. I’m excited. I’m terrified. I’m spiraling a little, but in a cute, high-functioning kind of…
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Caffeine and Consent
Fast food is a treat! Sugar is a treat! Caffeine is a goddamn blessing sometimes. And I mean that in the most reverent, fully-caffeinated way possible. The thing is, when I was a kid, none of these things were “allowed.” Not really. Not with joy. Not with balance. Not with that soft internal yes that…
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Radiant Emotional Chaos
Somewhere along the line, we were told — taught, shown, reinforced — that it’s not okay to be proud of ourselves. Not really. Not in a bold, radiant, or unapologetic way. It’s “confidence” if it’s humble and palatable. But anything more than that, and suddenly, it’s vanity, ego, and arrogance. Especially if you’re not a…
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Takin’ Care of Business
Two projects have been haunting me for what feels like an eternity. I’m not exaggerating — one’s been sitting there for over three years (dutch companies, you monster), and the other one, california love, has been quietly judging me from the corner of my to-do list for more than a year. They’re the kind of…
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Dancing for Myself And
There will be a point where I want to perform again. I know this. It’s not today. It’s probably not tomorrow. But it’ll show up like a cat on the windowsill — soft, insistent, familiar. Performance will tug at me again, but this time, I want to answer it without the self-destruction. Without the body…
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Does That Make Me Crazy?
The official 4K video for “Crazy” by Gnarls Barkley from the album ‘St. Elsewhere’ – available now! Lyrics I remember when I remember, I remember when I lost my mind There was something so pleasant about that place Even your emotions have an echo in so much space And when you’re out there without care…
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Taking Care Of Rain
Saying no is so much harder than it should be. Like, ridiculously hard. Not because I don’t want to say no, but because somewhere along the way, I got trained to prioritize everyone else’s comfort over my own peace. My own safety. My own gut feeling that something’s not okay here. That I don’t like…
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One Page at a Time
The World is a Book? Sure. But I Might Be on a Different Chapter Right Now. If the world were a book, and if the act of travel were equivalent to flipping pages, then yeah, I guess if you live and die in the same town, maybe you’ve only read a page. Or a paragraph.…
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Exploring Fear, Feeling Broken, and Self-Confidence
I recently circled a few core emotions in my journalling: fear, feeling broken, and struggling with self-confidence. These feelings seem tangled together, but as I dig deeper, I realize they might each have roots.
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‘Excited much?’
Gather ’round, kids, it’s time for a language lesson.