Category: Student
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Dear Me: I Love You. xoxo, ~Me.
I’ve been thinking a lot about my future self lately. Not in a grand, five-year-plan way. More in a very specific, very practical way. The version of me who exists tomorrow morning. Or next week. Or at 3:17 PM when something goes wrong and I’m already a little fried. That future me is doing their…
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Less Thinking, More Observance
I keep saying I want to invent something. Not in a casual, hobby way. In a very specific, slightly feral way. I want to make enough money from one good idea that I can stop negotiating my life in hours and deadlines and instead live off the investments it creates. And every time I say…
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From Self-Sacrifice to Self-Support
I’ve been thinking about the difference between self pity and self compassion, and how sneaky that difference is when you’re inside it. From the inside, self pity feels justified. Heavy, yes, but justified. It sounds logical. Reasonable. Evidence-based. Look at all the reasons I can’t. Look at how unfair this is. Look at how tired…
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Still Not in Trouble
(Still figuring this out…) Ironically, I love making mistakes. At least in public. At least when it’s tech. Put me on a livestream, give me a broken container or a missing semicolon or a weird YAML error, and I thrive. I get to troubleshoot out loud, laugh at myself, and let the community chime in…
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Am I in Trouble?
(Probably Not, But Tell That to My Brain) I hate getting in trouble. Viscerally. The fear of doing something “wrong,” of getting caught, of someone being mad at me? It’s so baked in, I don’t even question it most days. It’s just this background hum, like a low-grade static buzzing under the surface: Am I…
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You Are Responsible for Yourself
Universal Secret Number Zero: No One’s Coming And That’s Okay So here’s the thing I keep circling back to lately: no one is coming to save me. Not in a dramatic, end-of-the-world kind of way. Just in the quiet, everyday sense. Like, no one’s going to magically show up and organize my life or make…
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Life, the Universe, and Everything
(And Other Casual Topics) Okay, so here’s the deal: I don’t have it all figured out. Not even close. But lately, I’ve been collecting these little truths — scraps of wisdom, hard-earned lessons, things I’ve tripped over and gone, “Ohhh… that’s what that means.” And the more I gather them, the more I realize they’re…
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Let’s Teach ‘How to People’
What if school actually taught us how to be good people? Because yes, sure, algebra and the mitochondria and sentence diagramming—fine, I get it, there’s a place for that, but you know what would’ve helped me way more in life? Knowing how to deal with a panic attack. Or how to file taxes. Or how…
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We’re Not Machines, Rain
Some days you wake up and you’re like yes, today is the day I conquer the world. You’ve got your to-do list, your coffee, your playlist, and for a few glorious hours, you’re unstoppable. And then… BOOM. It’s like someone pulled the plug. Suddenly you’re scrolling through videos of raccoons washing grapes or reorganizing your sock…
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Consider This Your Gentle Reminder
Am I Scared or Just Forgetting to Play? One of the peculiar little puzzles I’m working on these days — and yes, that phrasing is intentional; it is a puzzle — is trying to approach things with curiosity instead of fear. Sounds easy, right? Like just a flick of a switch: boop, now I’m curious!…
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We Need to Talk
So apparently that post I made the other day — the one about being nervous, about having my kids here this summer for the first time, about shifting from my worker-brain to my parent-brain and wondering if I was going to screw it all up — hit home for some people. Especially younger folks. People…
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Bare Minimum Day
Some days, I wake up, and I know — deep in my bones, behind my eyeballs, under the to-do list tattoos etched on my soul — that I cannot. I just cannot. Not today. And still, my brain starts: “We should get things done.” Should clean. Should work out. Should make progress on healing. (Yes,…