Tag: mental illness
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Dutch Lock Down Day Fourteen
“But also I’m not as depressed today as I was a few days ago when I wrote those dark thoughts. I continue to get better and stabilize. Sure, it’ll get worse, too, but for now I’m enjoying the upswing and figuring out how to minimize the next dip.”
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Dutch Lock Down Day Twelve
“So, yeah, today SUCKED, but now that the funeral is over and that stressor is passed and, yeah, I totally took my temperature and it’s 36.5.”
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And Then I Got Sick
In my very last post, A Vacation From My Vacation, I was going to do All The Things ™ and whatnot, but then I got #ForRealsies Really Real Sick. Sometimes “tomorrow” unexpectedly punches you in the throat meat. Here’s what I did instead of all the things. Called the therapist. Talked to the therapist. Worked…
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Navigating the Rush Hour
Back in the States, ‘rush hour’ refers to one of my favourite Jackie Chan movies as well as the hell that is a morning and evening commute to and from work made only slightly less miserable by the sweet soothing sounds of NPR while here in the Netherlands, rush hour TRAFFIC is so lame that…
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Who Publishes On Wednesdays, I Mean Come On
Ideally this posts are written in batches and then scheduled to be published at future dates and times but I’m SO NOT THERE YET. Also? Don’t try to write while also letting the television play if you’re Rain Leander cause you’ll be CONSTANTLY DISTRACTED. I mean, some people can do it? But not I. Focus,…
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Fighting Acedia: Developing Mental Resilience
TRIGGER WARNING This article or section, or pages it links to, contains information about sexual assault and/or violence which may be triggering to survivors. In the midst of recovery, I bought entirely too many books for self help, distraction, and work. And along the way, I read a lot of Medium and ThoughtCatalog and in…
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Big Breath In Big Breath Out
TRIGGER WARNING This article or section, or pages it links to, contains information about sexual assault and/or violence which may be triggering to survivors. Needless to say, life is a bit rough right now. There’s a lot going on. But. I’m trying to focus. To take things one day at a time and just keep…
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Silence Is Golden
Except when it’s not. TRIGGER WARNING This article or section, or pages it links to, contains information about sexual assault and/or violence which may be triggering to survivors. Saturday night I went to a party. I haven’t been to a party in… forever? Ten forevers? It’s been a while. And I drank a bit. And…
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Last Time I Went For An Eye Exam, I Was Pregnant
I’ve been getting headaches lately and yesterday it was so bad that I threw up. Literally. In the shower. Having taken meds. I sometimes just sit in the shower to self soothe. Infinite hot water works for what ails you. The medicine finally kicked in (after puking, shower, more meds, and sleep) but now I’m…
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So I Was Going To Go To Bed Early
But. P put on The Dark Tower and it’s ninety five minutes and I’m gonna see every second of it. … .. . #DAMNIT
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Put On Your Shoes
So there’s this song, see. For toddlers. About getting ready and going outside. And PROS.alpha likes it. A lot. I’ll let you go ahead and imagine how many times we’ve seen it, but first, of course, because I love, I’m gonna go ahead and share it with you. CAUSE I LOVE Guess how many times…
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Woke. Up. Sore. As. Fuuuuuuuu
This morning, first of all, I woke up at FOUR FORTY FIVE because of birds singing the songs of their people. Jerks. And second of all, if you’d like to see what it looks like to sprint up to and then BOOGIE ACROSS THE FINISH LINE…