Tag: mental illness
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Moving Back to the States: The Last Walk
[Dutch Lock Down Day Five Hundred Two] This morning I woke up at 0330 because of a panic attack and also because I went to bed at 2130 and also because jet lag is a punk. I struggled to go back to sleep but at four I gave up the ghost, pulled myself out of…
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Moving Back to the States: Packing
[Dutch Lock Down Day Five Hundred] Today is all about packing the things that are going on the actual plane with us – things we’ll need short term that we can’t go without for a few days. This is mostly clothing and toiletries for the big people but also ipads and laptops and diapers and…
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I Surrender To Your Will
[Dutch Lock Down Day Four Hundred Seventy Four] When I started to do research for this one, well, I got completely distracted by ALL the movies and songs and albums and references and definitions for the word that I’ll admit that I’m overwhelmed and, well, STRESSED. This one is a SLIGHT click bait / bait…
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Don’t Panic
[Dutch Lock Down Day Four Hundred Seventy Two] I was totally NOT going to do another music post today cause Don’t Panic can refer to the Hitchhiker’s Guide catchphrase but it can also refer to Coldplay’s song and apparently a few other things. #mood But then I came across Coldplay’s video for said song and…
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Put On Your Own Mask First
[Dutch Lock Down Day Four Hundred Seventy] As told at Short Stack Conference this morning! Trigger Warning: This talk contains information about sexual assault and violence which may be triggering to survivors. I’d like to pretend that you’ll never need to know how to help a friend because we all live in a world without…
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All Hail Fluoxetine
[Dutch Lock Down Day Four Hundred Thirty Nine] I ate. I took fluoxetine. I went on a Very Long Walk ™. And the next day when I woke up, I felt a million times better. This is what depression looks like…. You’re fine. You’re juggling balls. Then you forget meds. Or one too many balls…
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I Crashed
[Dutch Lock Down Day Four Hundred Thirty Eight] This morning I full on crashed. Lashed out at my partner. Screamed. Howled. And then slept for hours. In the midst of it, though, I reached out to the doctor’s office and told them I was Not Good ™. Then, because I was asleep and didn’t answer…
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Posts
[Dutch Lock Down Day Four Hundred Thirty Five] A friend reached out the other day, “Hey, you still managing? Haven’t seen a blog post in a bit. Not that I cyber stalk you or anything.” And they’re right. I’m not okay. This whole OMG WE’RE MOVING TO AMERICA IN AUGUST thing is really running me…
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Psst. Hey, You.
[Dutch Lock Down Day Three Hundred Ninety] I love you. That’s it. That’s the whole post.
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Happy Trans Day of Visibility!! !
[Dutch Lock Down Day Three Hundred Seventy Seven] Tell your favourite trans people you see them. We love that. In the interest of full disclosure, yes, I identify as a bi-sexual non-binary trans feminine queer person; my pronouns are they / them. I’m trans. See me. But first the news: Five Utrecht bars will open…
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A Clean House Is A Clean Mind
[Dutch Lock Down Day Three Hundred Forty Two] There is an INCREDIBLE amount of construction happening at our house for the past few months and by INCREDIBLE I mean, it’s enough to intrude upon my mental well being. #GrindsTeeth #DAMNIT But when it’s done, we’ll have an amazing new top floor, an updated full bathroom,…
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Still Feeling Super Weird
[Dutch Lock Down Day Three Hundred Thirty Nine] So I did some shopping therapy. Logical things that I totally need, sure, but also Dr. Martens. But first the news: Curfew may be extended for three more weeks, sources tell NOS Covid-19 infections on the rise; highest 7-day average since February 3 Thousands register for coronavirus-proof…