Tag: mental illness

  • I Crashed

    [Dutch Lock Down Day Four Hundred Thirty Eight] This morning I full on crashed. Lashed out at my partner. Screamed. Howled. And then slept for hours. In the midst of it, though, I reached out to the doctor’s office and told them I was Not Good ™. Then, because I was asleep and didn’t answer…

  • Posts

    [Dutch Lock Down Day Four Hundred Thirty Five] A friend reached out the other day, “Hey, you still managing? Haven’t seen a blog post in a bit. Not that I cyber stalk you or anything.” And they’re right. I’m not okay. This whole OMG WE’RE MOVING TO AMERICA IN AUGUST thing is really running me…

  • Psst. Hey, You.

    [Dutch Lock Down Day Three Hundred Ninety] I love you. That’s it. That’s the whole post.

  • Happy Trans Day of Visibility!! !

    [Dutch Lock Down Day Three Hundred Seventy Seven] Tell your favourite trans people you see them. We love that. In the interest of full disclosure, yes, I identify as a bi-sexual non-binary trans feminine queer person; my pronouns are they / them. I’m trans. See me. But first the news: Five Utrecht bars will open…

  • A Clean House Is A Clean Mind

    [Dutch Lock Down Day Three Hundred Forty Two] There is an INCREDIBLE amount of construction happening at our house for the past few months and by INCREDIBLE I mean, it’s enough to intrude upon my mental well being. #GrindsTeeth #DAMNIT But when it’s done, we’ll have an amazing new top floor, an updated full bathroom,…

  • Still Feeling Super Weird

    [Dutch Lock Down Day Three Hundred Thirty Nine] So I did some shopping therapy. Logical things that I totally need, sure, but also Dr. Martens. But first the news: Curfew may be extended for three more weeks, sources tell NOS Covid-19 infections on the rise; highest 7-day average since February 3 Thousands register for coronavirus-proof…

  • “What’s Wrong, Leander?”

    [Dutch Lock Down Day Three Hundred Thirty Seven] …I don’t know…. Then why do I feel like I’m forgetting something. Avoiding something? Procrastinating? ….gently depressed? But first the news: Coronavirus hits international community hard; jobs and income under threat No excess mortality for first time since September With the appeal looming, Dutch government makes final…

  • And Now We’re Healing

    [Dutch Lock Down Day Three Hundred Thirty One] I had a massive misunderstanding with a close friend. Around being nonbinary. Around using the they / them pronouns. And we didn’t listen to one another for days. And then we finally did. But first the news: A pandemic, an environmental problem and a creative solution Seven-day…

  • It’s A Lot

    [Dutch Lock Down Day Three Hundred Thirty] Once upon a time in a land far away two ghosts fought their way to one another to find happiness and lived happily ever after. But first the news: Dutch start using AstraZeneca vaccine, family doctors now come on board Rutte cautions Dutch to enjoy ice skating with…

  • Like A Little Bug Under A Big Shoe

    [Dutch Lock Down Day Three Hundred Twenty Seven] I’m just … tired. I’m waiting on someone else. To move forward. To mend. To heal. And the longer it takes, the smaller I feel. But first the news: Inspectorate wants stricter conditions for transporting Covid vaccines Mayors, police support curfew extension Vaccine waste in the Netherlands:…

  • Still Shitty, But Still Optimistic

    [Dutch Lock Down Day Three Hundred Twenty Six] But first the news: Bad weather shuts coronavirus test centres, cases sharply down Fifteen elderly died within days of receiving a Covid-19 vaccination Dutch government extends coronavirus curfew to March 2

  • Due To The Snow, Everything Is Closed

    [Dutch Lock Down Day Three Hundred Twenty Five] Well, frak. But first the news: Positive coronavirus tests top one million, but daily total is down slightly Demonstrations formed in Maastricht and Amsterdam despite bitter cold 3,963 new Covid-19 cases on Sunday; Seven-day average down by eight percent